i used to be a genius.

my sister's life is blocking out my view of my life like a thick fog. i'm not saying i dislike her soccer carreer. i love it. i love watching her play soccer. it's just, i watch her play soccer so much, i go with her to her games so much, i go with her to rochester all day on saturdays and sundays for her ODP practices so much- that i just go with the flow. i'm her "moral support". my mom decided that i needed a calendar for my room, and i was like, "ok, thats fine. lets go" and we went to a calendar store at a mall in rochester (we were there becasue j'aime had soccer) and we were looking at all these different calendars and my mom says, "what would you like? i don't really know what your interests are." and yeah, thats kinda sad, but whats even sadder is that i replied with "I don't even know". i ended up with a snowboarding calendar, and it's pretty cool, cuz i do like to snowboard, i just stink at it hahaha. i haven't taken any pictures or written any songs in FOREVER, and those are two of my favorite things. i still play piano and guitar, but not nearly as much as i used to. Photography and music are pretty much like, majorly important things to me. but recently, it's like i don't even have time to think about it. It's like my life took the train to my sister's world and i'm tied to the tracks in front of it. haha i need to catch up with my life. kind of annoying. and on top of that theres other drama always in the back of my mind. this is why i love blogs. because i can type whatever the heck i want, and know that a very limited audience reads it. but sometimes i wish it were even more limited. ugh. i don't even want to post this post. im soooo tired.... ive been driving all day. well, not me physically, but u know.

i need a vacation.