Ayudame.

Sometime's being the second/last born really sucks.

your family puts so much focus on the older sibling.. so much effort... so much money.

then, before they know it, they realize, "OH, you have to go to college in a year too. you have dreams to work toward too. too bad, because now nothing you want to do is an option because you aren't as smart as your sister, and you aren't as skilled as your sister, and you aren't as important. and we spent everything on her, so now there's nothing left for you so you cant go to the college you want to and do the things you want to and life the life you want to..."

i love my sister.

but I've realized now....

I don't have a life.

because her life is my life.

or at least it has been....


so now there's no life left.

sorry.

i needed to vent.