sum up

well, I am currently doing nothing. I am home for the weekend and have literally nothing to do so. why not finally catch up on all the new things going on in my life?
well, i've taken a few steps backward since the last time i posted, simply in that i thought i knew what i am going to be doing with my life, but now i don't even have the slightest clue.

but here's what i do know:

-a year from now i will be in the middle of my 4 month stay in spain, studying abroad.
-in May, i am finally getting my license... and a car.
-i will be a counselor for 10 year olds at an 8 week long day camp this summer instead of obc which scares the crap out of me.
-i get scared easily.
-i am in a relationship. which i did not see coming. at all.
-i am going to be living at the house of one of the strongest most amazing girls i could have ever been blessed to meet, and commuting to school.
-i am insecure.
-i am insanely happy. (haha i have good days and bad days. but i'm not sure why.)
-i am watching high school musical right now and am extremely content with that.
-i'm second guessing some of the biggest decisions i have ever made.
-i miss playing soccer.
-real madrid just lost to barcelona, so i'm kind of bitter currently.
-i love my honors speech class.
-i am on the worship team at roberts and i love it. on april 2nd i will be playing the piano. come see.
-when aaron comes back from basic next semester, he and i are going to be playing music in random cafes and stuff together until we get famous. then i can just drop out and forget about all previous issues haha.
-ok, after reading this list over, i'm clearly in a bad mood and am struggling with some things.

i promise you, i'm happy. i'm ok. i'm fine.

i just struggle with things, same as you.

but there you go, there's my sum up.

I'M SO EXCITED FOR SUMMER.