i have no words.

I remember when I stumbled in the windYou heard my cry, You raised me up againBut my strength is almost goneHow can I carry on if I can't find You
As the thunder rollsI barely hear Your whisper through the rain, "I'm with you"And as You mercy falls I raise my handsAnd praise the God who gives and takes away
And I'll praise You in this storm and I will lift my handsFor You are who You are no matter where I amAnd every tear I've cried You hold in Your handYou never left my side and though my heart is tornI will praise You in this storm
I lift my eyes unto the hills, where does my help come from?my help comes from the Lord, the maker of heaven and earth. 



Aight. 
I'm sick of this. this anger and inadequacy that I feel all the time. The way I feel on nights like tonight when it seems like no matter what i do, I'm just not good enough for my family. I'm not good enough. I'm not athletic enough, I'm not smart enough, I'm not a good enough person, I'm a disappointment. No matter what I do or say, it's like i will NEVER be good enough for them. 
sometimes I wonder if my mom wishes she stopped at one. 
cuz apparently she's good enough. 
i'm giving this to you. because I cant handle it. 
there's so much more that I could say. But i don't know how to say it. You know my heart. 
it's Yours. 
Please, just take it and do with it what You want...
clearly, I'm a mess haha.
I need You. 



-Love,your daughter.